Two days and counting, March 29th will be the pregnancy test. And I will know if I am to be a dad and be holding my child in my arms at the end of the year, so, I pray. This past week has not been easy, not just the worrying and the waiting for the pregnancy test. I came down with a serious case of food poisoning on Tuesday night, and I lay in a pool of my own sweat with cramps and a fever a flash of my future flooded over me. Picture it, I am in that state on the floor and an infant is crying for a feeding, a changing etc. Well, I did, and I panicked, how the hell will I cope?
Most of the parents I spoke to about this said very calmly to me, you will just do what needs to be done. Your pain and own sickness will not matter, you will just cope. From this illness I had a brief glimpse into what could be, and I must say I was worried. I will have the comfort of knowing I will have full time help, so in time of stress there will be someone there for me. I also have a great group of friends that will pitch in, both of these factors will allow me to sleep a little better before the bundle of joy arrives.
So now with the panicking underway, everything that could be done has been done. And it comes down to these two final days, I will spend them like I've spent the past year. Hoping and praying and counting down till I get that call I have been waiting a lifetime for, until then...all my love to everyone for your continuing support.
Dear Davide, do not worry. It is amazing how much good energy these little beings are able to rally around temselves. Once you have a baby universal goodwill will flow to your household and you will have all the support that you need, from people you hadn't even imagined!
Posted by: Mariana | March 30, 2009 at 01:29 AM